7 years ago I was given the words "remission". I remain that way today even after the second cancer in 2011. I am a thankful gal. Today in church I thought it was time to close this chapter of my life... This Blog.. Cancer will always be on the edges of my mind but I will not live there in those thoughts. I have been blessed these past 7 years with friends and family who have loved and cared for me. There have been adventures and trips that I did not think would happen. More on the horizon. We have found a wonderful home and are comfortable in this new place. Retirement was my choice and not due to my inability to perform my job. Chemo brain is real and it has had its affect, but in a slower pace I can manage just fine. My husband and companion, friend and heartthrob is with me in this after 47 years. I feel blessed.
We are talking at church about recognizing "God moments" in our busy and turmoiled lives. I have seen several God moments recently ....This week I have reconnected with a long time friend who first taught me much in my growth as a Christian woman, thank you Karen. Yesterday I happened to sit beside a women at a counter where we were eating breakfast. She has recently been identified with a Non-hogkins lymphoma, is near my age, has two grown children, and she and her husband are United Methodists. Small world. They live near us and we have decided to walk this road of cancer together.
Later, I took 2 of the granddaughters to a Christmas program at Elkhart Civic theatre and enjoyed comfortable, fun music of the season. Friday we heard the Notre Dame presentation of the Messiah which thrilled my soul.
In a couple of weeks we will have the whole family together and that makes this Mama's heart full. When asked "What makes you happy?" I have learned that ...when my family is happy, I am happy. To be included in their lives here and phone calls from afar is such a gift.
I think it is time to close this blog on a good note. My blessings to each of you who have read this over the last 7 years and supported me by your words, cards, prayers and expressions of love. Thanks, Lauren, for starting this blog and teaching me how to share. Cancer touched me hard, and it has had lasting effects......some of those positive. I have been able to say to people and people to me how we feel about each other. Something usually not said until a funeral. I am aware more of each day and the need to live it more fully....tomorrow is not promised.
Is my life perfect and wonderful.... no! I am imperfect and stumble. I hurt for families in distress and the condition of this country...world..
THUS I leave you with this one last THOUGHT FOR THE DAY:
Life is not perfect and full of happiness, but I have chosen to look beyond those imperfections and to be happy. In all things praise God.
P.S. As I write this final blog I feel a sadness to end this "therapy too". This window into my life - my very soul, yet I have become more private in these tumultuous times. I feel it is time to move on. God speed