In the near future I am going to update some of my blog...Lauren needs' a new picture and I just want to be more creative. So I am just warning you that the blog may look a little different in the near future. I have to get up my nerve to try this...
THOUGHT FOR THE DAY: Make it beautiful. You are in charge of your attitude.
I bought a book on Amazon that is being read by my book club. It arrived and I have spent the last 4 hours reading without stop. It was hard to stop because I needed to shower and get ready to go to a special birthday party. Oh, do I feel lazy..........not at all.
I have ALSO scoured the kitchen counters and sink, swept the basement, cleaned the cat box, moved all of Sophie's toys to their designated spots. I have sorted out two cabinets and arrange the refrigerator. Besides that I have done 2 loads of laundry.........
I think books on tape are WONDERFUL!!!!!
Now I will state that the CITY OF WOMEN by David R. Gillham is excellent. Historical drama about 1943 in Berlin. Anyone want to borrow it when I am done?
A THOUGHT FROM THE BOOK ITSELF: In the very darkest hour, whom do you trust, whom do you love , and who can be saved?
Sitting at my desk.....thinking.....weather is nice and I SHOULD be outside....deck needs resurfacing and I SHOULD be working on that......some letters SHOULD be written.....there are weeds I SHOULD pull......a garage I SHOULD clean......there are some decisions I SHOULD think through........and people I SHOULD see...... what SHOULD I do?
I had had some other plans but they got changed and now I have to decide if I SHOULD do some of my SHOULD DO list.
What is wrong with just thinking and taking a book out to the deck in the beautiful sun......NOTHING stop feeling guilty. I remember the phrase that I heard several years ago at a christian woman's retreat. Say it outloud ...with me.......
THOUGHT FOR THE DAY: Today I will not should upon myself or let others should upon me.
Isn't it wonderful when a couple of people come together and "click . That happened on Sunday afternoon and I am still basking in the warmth. I wanted to send a picture...but we were talking too much to get one on my camera. Can you believe that.....me talking too much. Well, it was a three way competition .... we laughed and shared together and what had once been a nice relationship with these gals (who do not live near each other- shucks) is now a bond! Since we all taught special ed, I came up with the SPED Gals - that is SP from "special" and ED from "ed". Peg came up with SPED SISTERS....I like it. So thankful for the encounter and the opening of deeper friendships. Oh, and by the way our 3 hubbys were there too and they got along great, too. Double blessing.
THOUGHT FOR THE DAY: You just never know.....what the day can bring....blessings to you all
I have heard that sitting on an exercisea ball can improve core strength. I have been trying to improve my leg strength and exercising more. I thought while I work at the desk I could sit on an exercise ball. See the picture of the ball at my desk. It is about the same height as my desk chair. Great idea.........
I sat down and sunk with my chin almost on the desk. " I can still do this," said I.........the ball rolled forward and I nearly fell off. Then I tried to get up....here came the delemina.....I had no support to push my legs up. by now I was nearly under the desk and holding on to keep from falling off. I had to call for Larry to come and save me...He lifted me up by grabbing my belt and pulling. I am glad this was not a hidden camera moment. I do not think I will try the ball at the desk again.
THOUGHT FOR THE DAY: If you don't try, you won't know if it works....be sure to have a back up plan.
This post is for a friend, Sandy Lorenz who has recently had a similar fate getting up....ain't aging wonderful!
On Monday morning June 9, 2014 I was riding in our car headed to Maryland for family reunion of sorts. The phonne rang and our son, Jonathan;s booming voice came over the miles from Colorado. "hope I did not wake you. (it was 12:30 pm) just wanted to wish a wonderful first Monday of your longest summer vacation." Kids can say the darndest things. Yup. I have just started the longesst summer vacation of my life. Thanks, Jonathan. I love you too.
We spent the first week of retirement sitting and driving, sitting and eating, sitting and talking, driving and sitting, sitting and talking, sitting and eating, sitting and driving with more sitting and talking and then 11 hours of sitting and driving to get home. fThat is what we did, but that does not tell the story. We saw a cousin and her husband and spent great time bonding withg them. Then on to Columbia, Maryland to see a lady who was my Mom's best friends and is llke an Aunt to me. She also was a Speech therapist in the early days of the profession. We talked family, profession, not too much politics, and her thoughts on how she wants to spend the rest of her time here on earth. She will be 90 in September and has not family alive. Wish we lived closer.
On last Saturday before our long drive home so that Larry could be in the pulpit at 9:30am Sunday, we went to the Geist meeting house. It is an old Mennonite meeting house with its own graveyard where everyone's headstone has GEIST on it. We place a token of love on the three headstones of my Mom, Dad, and brother, Steve. Then we met with some of the Geist family for the annual meeting of care and restoration of the same Geist meeting house. Lunch with the family and then on to home. Lots of warm feeling came with this week. Jet lagged but thankful.
I do not feel old! I do not feel used up! I believe God has plans for me! I love helping people! So why did I retire I have been asked. Even my own family does not really understand. I retired because I can no longer do the job. I have never been the same since I came back after chemo. People laugh at me and say that the aging process hits us all. I do agree that some of what is going on is that slowing down. But I know the fact that for me my ability to multi-task stopped dramatically with chemo. I know that fuzzy brain has me reading test questions to kids and saying the wrong words......and I do not even know I have said it. I know that I get panic attacks when I am asked a question that I should know and I have to reach down into some dark well to find the information. Once I get started I can usually keep it going but not always. I start to talk about a topic and can't remember the topic in the middle of talking with parents at conferences. One of the chemicals I took can affect vision and I know that I have trouble reading words - even with new glasses. It has been different these last 5 years. It has gotten more difficult to be myself. The paperwork and accountability requirements is only the tip of the iceberg. Who I am underneath the water is the real reason I retired. Unbeknownst to many I still have issues that the chemo brought on. Tomorrow, my first actual day out of the school I will spend about 4 -5 hours sitting in the hospital getting another infusion. Maybe this is the answer to keeping me healthier.
My husband does not know why I am retiring. He knows I love the kids and like a routine. He is worried how this will affect him. I am concerned about that too. Sara told me that I will develop a new routine and that is a freeing thought. I need to relearn who I am and what skills other than teaching I have. I need to learn my limits and learn to say "no". I need to stop and listen and hear what God has planned.
THOUGHT FOR THE DAY; Patience people. The cocoon is opening and the butterfly is going to try out some new wings.
The end of 44 years of teaching. Then end of 44 years of working with kids 5 days a week 180 days a year.
What I will miss: What I won't miss:
1 - the kids 1- alarm going off at 5:30 am
2 - smiling faces of friends 2- 35-45 minute drive every school day
3 - a large room to be creative in 3 - multiple schools to travel to
4 - meeting with parents 4 - writing IEPs
5- reading teachers who ask for my advice 5 - too large a caseload to serve effectively
6 - teaching sign language to Rhonda 6 - phone calls to arrange conferences
7 - seeing progress in "my" kids 7 - staying late dong paperwork
8 - good computers and helps 8- computer restrictions
9 - high fives from kids in the hall 9 - lice
10 - notes from kids 10 - filing
11 - my fellow speechies 11 - 300 miles a week traveling to and from
12 - learning how to use the new programs 12 - paperwork
13 - kids hugs when they leave my room 13 - juggling three principals and staffs
14 - two great staffs that work well with 14 - carting material between schools
15 - special ladies in the cafeteria 15 - being an isolated person in the sea of teachers
16 - high school office support/friends 16 - long IEP conferences
17 - being a part of teacher's lives 17 - making copies and copies
18 - seeing success with my kiddos 18 - did I say writing IEPs
19 - meeting with my cohorts in speech 19 - feeling there is so much more I could do
20 - the paycheck and never again singing "I owe, I owe, so off to work I go..."